♥ Sunday, September 07, 2008
there have been some who have asked me the question: 'Why do you no longer blog?' I blame it on their inquistive mind, but me being courteous and gracious me, have decided to blog an answer. =)
of course, that makes this blog entry an inherent paradox. which is completely illogical. but blogs arent meant to be rational. blogs are emotional. blogs are about angst.
but i am not angsty. thats why i dun blog.
but some ppl disagree. they think i dun blog because im lazy. but i have to disagree with their disagreement. i dun blog because i am not angsty. I feel that those who disagree with me are just jealous because they dun have my happiness.
But those people also tend to disagree with that statement. Whatever. Typical of their cynical selves.
[if you notice, the previous 3 paragraphs all begin with but.]
But thats not the point. The point is that THIS paragraph starts with but.
1:15 PM
♥ Thursday, December 13, 2007
its always been a tricky business: friendships.
as rewarding as they mightn'tbe, sometimes, u just wanna be alone.
haha. but at least. u still have some ppl u can really count on.. haha.
was that coherent? lol.
12:43 PM
♥ Thursday, December 06, 2007
maybe we should all take awhile to take this in: we ARE approaching the end of this stage of our lives.
u probably rmb sometime when u were in primary/secondary school and some wise old distant retired millionaire uncle during chinese new year came and spoke to u. giving u advice saying that teenage and childhood years are the best years of ur life.
u probably shrugged and just thought to urself that this guy probably just misses his youth. LOL. after all, how could waking up at 6+ in the morning and reporting for morning assembly and going for a gazillion EFFECTIVE math lectures here in this case here, be the best part of our lives? haha.
but in a strange way now, dun u miss the way mr leong greets the college every morning.. miss standing there dumb as u might have looked singing the national anthem and school song? didnt u at grad night when realizing that this was going to be the last time u ever sing the school song, sing it louder and more proudly? for me, i even wished we could have had an encore... haha.
you know, its a funny feeling nostalgia. the way it makes u miss the things u nv thought u would. miss the little jokes at chem and physics lectures that u usually wish to pon.. miss the feeling of waking up at 6 and chionging to school.. or the random canteen breaks that we took in between lessons and the times when we were caught by teachers? haha. but most of all, dun we miss the ppl who made all these memories possible?
maybe next chinese new year, with your new hairstyle (most guys would be bald and most girls being GIRLS would have probably done something to their hair HAHA), youll tell that rich uncle that perhaps u understand better what he means now.. u wouldnt know if it was the best time but its certainly been a helluva time! and the ppl who have ponned their way through have certainly been missing out! haha. and for me, im glad that it happened. all of it. the good and bad. each and every school day.
but that little dreamy idealistic part of me still wishes that it could happen again. just one more time. just one more school day. one more time to wake up in my dreamy state and trudge to school all sweaty and be greeted with my bunch of half asleep classmates at the parade square, before trying to keep still and stand straight to sing the anthems and listen to mr leong to make his FURTHER announcements...
but issit ever going to happen? (dun answer that pls. lol)
If it does, this time round. i probably wouldnt cheer if morning assembly was cancelled. lol.Labels: reflections
1:32 AM
♥ Tuesday, December 04, 2007
WTMAN! im blogging! =D after a month? or more than that.. haha. now clearly. tts an occasion. haha.
just came back from 01 batch outing 3 day 2 night at bintan and 'perth' ! haha. personally i think i enjoyed bintan more than perth!! haha. although some individuals might beg to differ! LOL.
wooo! and before that went to kl/genting too! haha. and i must say that the ferry home from bintan was probably more vomit-inducing than all the roller coaster rides in genting combined! and quite exciting too.. haha. maybe genting management should go set up a ferry ride as its newest attraction! LOL.
wooo! fun holidays definitely, but still nothing beats home sweet home -- unless perhaps u reach home the day before prom and havent prepared yet! LOL. i really gotta salvage something tmr! loll.
anyway, yes definitely home sweet home. lol. with family and friends back here.. haha. and this december is going to be a time filled with great memories with friends and loved ones esp with the capacity to exclude all those mugging content out of my brain now that a levels are over.. haha. a time to remember and cherish before becoming botak jones.. now that i cant get wrong!
and if u are a male singaporean reading this, get that right too. lol. cherish and make good use of the time now! =)
now that i think of it, used wisely, i think 2 years in jc can really forge some great strong ties between individuals and lead to some really precious friendships. (Moreover, it has also led to many successful couples. LOL. doesnt that just support my point? haha) thanks a million to my classmates and ccamates! woo.
but honestly, i think no matter how much hardship u put within a jc social circle, or how much interaction u have within ur circle in 2 years, it still cant beat friendships that lasted for 6 years. haha.
thats why i wanna say 01 FOR LIFE man! haha. WOOOO! i think i really like the way we all each have our own individual separate social groups but when we come together we still THE MAN!.. much more man than ANY sea wave in bintan! lol.
so heres cheers to 01! WOOOOO!Labels: class, outing, scouts
2:55 AM
♥ Tuesday, October 30, 2007
A wise man named Plato once said for us not to trust our senses. because the senses deceive.
Now, i think he would be all the wiser if he had said not to trust anyone as well. RAWR! haha. cant ppl just say 'i dunno' when they dunno??? LOL. instead of trying to act smart, and pretend to be very sure! and then make overtrusting losers like myself fall into ur trap!
and then make wrong decisions. based on misinformation because somebody decided he needed to keep up his image and conjure up an ONLY SLIGHTLY distorted version of the truth. lol.
sigh oh well. maybe time will tell.
[and btw, it wasnt really Plato who said that.. it was Aristotle. lol. for the ppl who actually believed me just now, haha. welcome to the club of overtrusting ppl man! =D forgive me i was just feeling lonely down here!] haha. hope ki will be good tmr! =)
9:31 PM
♥ Friday, October 26, 2007
woo! right.. its 408 am and im blogging! lol. after quite a while.. haha. it does feel refreshing =)
reading my short last entry.. prelims wasnt too long ago actually.. but nows the real deal. the a levels. but lets not talk abt it.. lol. im a little tired thinking abt it already lol..
u know i think its getting harder and harder to be a real MAN nowadays. lol. haha. maybe its cos women are getting more and more powerful.. haha. LOL.
like once i was walking toward the library then i saw this guy was walking into the library in front of this bunch of girls and he din open the door for them the way an EXCELLENT role model gentleman would do. haha. and the girls were like talking behind his back saying that he sucks as a gentleman, etc. etc. lol.
lead a women's liberation movement and ur a champion feminist human rights activist, lead a movement on male liberation and ur a male chauvanist pig (pardon me again if i spelt that wrongly.) haha. Now, i want MAN's rights! haha.
anyway, speaking of MAN, today was winston hodge farewell haha. which was quite exciting lol. a lot of screaming and an emo mr leong lol. which was touching lol. haha.
and IT MAKES ME REALIZE that this silly phase of my life known as my junior college years will be soon be over.. sigh.. has there really been a thousand opportunities these 2 years of which i took like 5? LOL. haha. no la. there are things that i could have done better but overall its been an educational and meaningful 2 years! lol..
and im quite sad i cant go watch david copperfield this year! cos of a levels lol.. haha. but now he looks so unlike the person that i imagine him to be from all his past tv specials. lol. its kinda sad in general when the image of a person u have is that of when they were like 20 years younger and then when u see them u expect to see that same person again. and then poof. the person looks so different and alien to u.
haha. kinda like the feeling i get everytime i go to ri and eat, i feel like im going to a different place altogether. actually, maybe im a little lag but to me i dun think ive really registered that the old canteen gryphons lair and scout den dun exist anymore.. lol. its like to me the places are still so vivid, maybe sometimes i convince myself that they have to be out there somewhere.
RAWR.. dun such stuff just make u angsty! LOL. haha. but wtman.. treasure the memories i guess.. haha. =)Labels: misc, reflections
4:06 AM